Questions you may be asking
I lost my sister ten years ago and kept my feelings to myself so I could help my mom get through it. Now I have to take care of my mom, fulfill my sister’s role in the family, and my own. It’s too much.
You fell into a familiar trough – the idea that you can set your own grief aside to ease the way for a loved one, while you pick up the duties of the deceased so as to keep everyone else afloat. It is your turn to attend to your own feelings, and to let the family reorganize around the death of your sister. Seeing an experienced grief counselor may help you find your way.