Questions you may be asking
I feel like God has abandoned me.
Nothing will test your spiritual beliefs like going through a significant loss. As you are moved to, it will be worth the effort to struggle to a new spiritual understanding. Perhaps loss throws open the door to deeper understandings. Don’t feel obligated to accept common platitudes like “God has a plan” or “Your loved one is in a better place” offered as comfort by well-meaning friends, if they don’t fit for you. Come to your own conclusions, in your own time.